I'm so sleepy right now but it feels kind of good like all the molecules of me are slow dancing. On the way home from work today, actually much of the day, I was saying to myself and chanting, "I love you. I love you." To the people in the other cars, or on the streets, to the trees, to the ground. Doing this changed my thought pattern. I might see someone and start to make observations about them, but then I would think, "I love you," and I'd just let go of the observation and simply love them and move on. When, during the day, I drove over a river, I saw it sparkle in the sun and I loved the river and that pulled my mind into it and I saw how green and quiet it is under the water, how it keeps moving, and I loved the fish and the plants and the rocks and the water and it held my heart for a long time after I was past there. When I got back to my office, I got in an elevator with a man I don't know real well but had decided a long time ago that I didn't like him. And I thought, "I love you." And then he complimented my shoes. Which was sweet and unexpected. Plus, they are awesome shoes.
On my way home I was still thinking"I love you," but I also had the radio on, so I started saying it out loud, and singing it a bit with the music. Then on a street near my house I saw a parked van with the license plate, "ILOVEU." I never saw that license plate before though I have driven down that street often enough. Confirmation! I felt good.
This practice started on the mountain a couple weeks back, and I might have forgotten about it, except Dave picked up on it and has been doing it all the time. He started doing it while he was harvesting herbs in his garden and making peppermint tea. Such good tea! And he kept reminding me that he was doing this and telling me how good he felt. So finally it worked its way back through my thick hide of habit, and I started doing it. At first it didn't feel natural or mostly I'd just forget, but the last couple days it seemed to pick up some energy and started to become part of a pathway. Anyhow, I wanted to write it down to share here. And now I am really sleepy. Happy rest to all. I love you.
On my way home I was still thinking"I love you," but I also had the radio on, so I started saying it out loud, and singing it a bit with the music. Then on a street near my house I saw a parked van with the license plate, "ILOVEU." I never saw that license plate before though I have driven down that street often enough. Confirmation! I felt good.
This practice started on the mountain a couple weeks back, and I might have forgotten about it, except Dave picked up on it and has been doing it all the time. He started doing it while he was harvesting herbs in his garden and making peppermint tea. Such good tea! And he kept reminding me that he was doing this and telling me how good he felt. So finally it worked its way back through my thick hide of habit, and I started doing it. At first it didn't feel natural or mostly I'd just forget, but the last couple days it seemed to pick up some energy and started to become part of a pathway. Anyhow, I wanted to write it down to share here. And now I am really sleepy. Happy rest to all. I love you.
